I hold him in my hands and rock him to sleep, a spine curved now relaxed. We are safe here in dreams. I sway from side to side and sing a low Northern lullaby. And tears of joy form.
I hold him in my arms, and he fits. My daughter scoops up his drugs from the young nurse and we return home.
"I can sort it," she says.
And she does. She reaches for a pad of paper and a pencil, and fifteen minutes later she's sorted a Drug Programme, administered five separate medications and is feeding him. Immense.
I am in the hospital with my daughter, a chattering TV screen sequined and dancing on a Saturday night. My daughter danced once. I want her so dearly to dance again.
He fits, once more. The nurse comes and times him home. Eyes rolling and shrieks, then he's back with us.
Twitch
Saturday, 30 October 2010
Sunday, 17 October 2010
Tuesday, 12 October 2010
the twitch texts - vol. 4
my daughter
Looks like twitch might be let out today! Yeah! Just got to see the expert n discuss a plan of action. What are the odds?
my daughter
The vampires are out to get him. They want his blood!
my friend, Ric
Hi. Just wanted to see how it's going. Ric
my daughter
Twitch successfully registered. Just picking up little lamper now and then home. G is already there.
my daughter
Well twitch has had a week of being at home and has been doing really well until the doctors decided to mess with his medication. He has started fitting again. Just got to see how they want to change his medicine.
my daughter
I think they got bored with us here. Off to addenbrookes on mon if they have a bed for us.
my daughter
Well twitch is so excited about going to addenbrookes that he is trying to beat his record number of fits in a day. So far we are on 12 and his record is 14. Lets hope the extra meds kick in soon.
my daugher
Looks like the doctors really like the pictures twitch draws with his brain. Addenbrookes want to see them 2 so another eeg it is. They also dont think he is enough of a druggie so more medication as well. At least he wont need to dabble with drugs when he is older, he will already have the tee shirt!
my daughter
What a performer. Sleep, fits and awake time on the eeg. What a good boy!
my daughter
The hospital have a new tactic. Turn twitch luminous! His medicine is bright yellow and stains everything it touches, clothes and skin. Twitch has a lovely shade of lipstick at the minute.
Looks like twitch might be let out today! Yeah! Just got to see the expert n discuss a plan of action. What are the odds?
my daughter
The vampires are out to get him. They want his blood!
my friend, Ric
Hi. Just wanted to see how it's going. Ric
my daughter
Twitch successfully registered. Just picking up little lamper now and then home. G is already there.
my daughter
Well twitch has had a week of being at home and has been doing really well until the doctors decided to mess with his medication. He has started fitting again. Just got to see how they want to change his medicine.
my daughter
I think they got bored with us here. Off to addenbrookes on mon if they have a bed for us.
my daughter
Well twitch is so excited about going to addenbrookes that he is trying to beat his record number of fits in a day. So far we are on 12 and his record is 14. Lets hope the extra meds kick in soon.
my daugher
Looks like the doctors really like the pictures twitch draws with his brain. Addenbrookes want to see them 2 so another eeg it is. They also dont think he is enough of a druggie so more medication as well. At least he wont need to dabble with drugs when he is older, he will already have the tee shirt!
my daughter
What a performer. Sleep, fits and awake time on the eeg. What a good boy!
my daughter
The hospital have a new tactic. Turn twitch luminous! His medicine is bright yellow and stains everything it touches, clothes and skin. Twitch has a lovely shade of lipstick at the minute.
Saturday, 9 October 2010
The Twitch Texts - Vol 3
my daughter
Just spoken to doc. They have finally decided twitch has epilepsy. They might give him steroids to control the twitching. They still need to talk to addenbrookes and find out what they advise but doc is hoping to discharge us and just go in for tests n stuff.
my elder brother
Thanks for keeping me up to date - hopefully it will be something they can control and he might grow out of it. Wish J all the best from me and L.
my daughter
Well twitch is going to be superman cos he is going on steroids to control the epilepsy. Lets hope the side effect of hunger doesnt make him feed any more or i will be permanent milk bar! Just a few more tests and we should be home.
my daughter
Twitch successfully registered. Just picking up W now and then home. G is already there. Love you so much. J
my daughter
Well twitch has had a week of being at home and has been doing really well until the doctors decided to mess around with his medication. He has just started fitting again. Just got to see how they want to change his medicine.
my daughter
Twitch has decided home is really boring so mommy had to take him back to hospital cos his fits started again. I think he has a secret love of needles despite his protests.
my daughter
Twitch is a very clever boy. He has been drawing some really pretty pictures with his brain on the eeg for the men in the white coats to look at. Just go to wait n see what they make of them.
my daughter
The hospital love twitch so much they want him in for 2 weeks while they wean our little druggie off the steroids. Bored already!
my daughter
Twitch has decided he loves hospitals so much he saved his first smile for our nurse this morning. What about his poor mother who has fed him n even changed his foul bum! No the nurse got the smile.
Just spoken to doc. They have finally decided twitch has epilepsy. They might give him steroids to control the twitching. They still need to talk to addenbrookes and find out what they advise but doc is hoping to discharge us and just go in for tests n stuff.
my elder brother
Thanks for keeping me up to date - hopefully it will be something they can control and he might grow out of it. Wish J all the best from me and L.
my daughter
Well twitch is going to be superman cos he is going on steroids to control the epilepsy. Lets hope the side effect of hunger doesnt make him feed any more or i will be permanent milk bar! Just a few more tests and we should be home.
my daughter
Twitch successfully registered. Just picking up W now and then home. G is already there. Love you so much. J
my daughter
Well twitch has had a week of being at home and has been doing really well until the doctors decided to mess around with his medication. He has just started fitting again. Just got to see how they want to change his medicine.
my daughter
Twitch has decided home is really boring so mommy had to take him back to hospital cos his fits started again. I think he has a secret love of needles despite his protests.
my daughter
Twitch is a very clever boy. He has been drawing some really pretty pictures with his brain on the eeg for the men in the white coats to look at. Just go to wait n see what they make of them.
my daughter
The hospital love twitch so much they want him in for 2 weeks while they wean our little druggie off the steroids. Bored already!
my daughter
Twitch has decided he loves hospitals so much he saved his first smile for our nurse this morning. What about his poor mother who has fed him n even changed his foul bum! No the nurse got the smile.
The Twitch Texts - Vol 2
my daughter
woohoo twitch had a fit free night. They just have to get his meds right n then we can come home n just return for tests.
my daughter
Woohoo. Twitch getting discharged today! Wonder if I will too?
my daughter
Twitch n mom going home today!
my daughter
Hi did you just ring. I got a missed call and private number.
my daughter
Mystery solved. It was the hospital. Twichs meds r at right levels.
my daughter
Just to let you know twitch back in hospital. Fits are not stopping. They are admitting him overnight for observation and we will see what the morning brings.
my daughter
Just seen doc. They want to give twitch a party and look at him under uv light n also contact cambridge for some advice cos the seizure expert here just retired. They gave him extra meds last night n since then only 2 fits so at least thats good.
my wife
Twitch had fewer fits today - double meds. I'm off to J's for the night . J hoping discharge tomorrow. If so I will come home then x
my daughter
Twitch has been a good boy so has been given an overnight pass! He better behave at home!
my daughter
Well they finally found out that young twitch has an abnormal brain. He made pretty patterns for the eeg man. Just a shame they dont know what the patterns mean. Will find out tomo when they talk to the experts at addenbrookes.
woohoo twitch had a fit free night. They just have to get his meds right n then we can come home n just return for tests.
my daughter
Woohoo. Twitch getting discharged today! Wonder if I will too?
my daughter
Twitch n mom going home today!
my daughter
Hi did you just ring. I got a missed call and private number.
my daughter
Mystery solved. It was the hospital. Twichs meds r at right levels.
my daughter
Just to let you know twitch back in hospital. Fits are not stopping. They are admitting him overnight for observation and we will see what the morning brings.
my daughter
Just seen doc. They want to give twitch a party and look at him under uv light n also contact cambridge for some advice cos the seizure expert here just retired. They gave him extra meds last night n since then only 2 fits so at least thats good.
my wife
Twitch had fewer fits today - double meds. I'm off to J's for the night . J hoping discharge tomorrow. If so I will come home then x
my daughter
Twitch has been a good boy so has been given an overnight pass! He better behave at home!
my daughter
Well they finally found out that young twitch has an abnormal brain. He made pretty patterns for the eeg man. Just a shame they dont know what the patterns mean. Will find out tomo when they talk to the experts at addenbrookes.
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